After procrastinating back and forth over the problem of dragonboat, i was hit with the realization that other than the lack of bonding, i have completely lost my drive and motivation for dragonboat. Training today was uneventful. First, i was late and had to quickly put down my stuff and catch up with the rest for the run, during which i lacked any feeling or motivation to put myself thru. Second, during rowing, i just felt plainly alienated from the rest of the team.
This further confirms the fact that i've lost my zest for dragonboat, and not partly due to the fact that i have a busy schedule coming up........
Other than that, training was kinda tough today. At sea, we did a 2km warmup row, followed by 2 strenuous 4km row around the circumference of kallang river. Aching all over now, coz i have been away from training since the last race - abt 3 wks.
Tempted i am to quit dragonboat, feeling like a burden right now, but then again, there's the matter of abandoning my teammates in their time of need (was told they don't wanna lose such a good rower) . Somehow it seems unethical to quit and join PASSC team, its TOTAL DISLOYALTY. Feeling depression, disillusionment right now, muz really reflect and find what i really want from life i guess.
Its weird how i feel more stressed and depressed even though exams are over.....not getting the sense of relief i ought to feel.....
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1:34 AM
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