Went for HDB DB training on sat. It was truly an eye-opening experience.....The rowers all rowed at a breakneck pace, a pace that our team had never experimented with before.....had a hard time catching up with their coordination.....Can u imagine that even myself, as pacer of my own team, cannot catch with them? Who am i then, to set the pace for my team? The kicking was also impactful...almost lost my balance and fell off the seat....and lost my footing countless of times.Finally got corrected on certain aspects of my rowing....it is really different having a trainer who can discern your mistakes at one glance. Must really improve myself....
Of course, no one is perfect too....was initially pissed off cos the person rowing in front of me kept scooping up water with her paddle onto me...Man! I couldn't see a thing in front of me nor could i following the coordination...she did not even coordinated well with the rest aniwaes....was secretly glad when i switched boats back to join my teammates. What a relief!
Have been in a reflective mood the past few days....probably feeling the lack of purpose, direction and drive, hence the mind tends to wander. Felt a tinge of sadness when i look back at how hard it is to gather with a group of friends. Everyone's schedules and priorities are different....itz hard to even find a common time slot to catch up with old times and bond in present time. I wonder how long has it been since i last met them. It is however, my firm belief that if friends are committed to meeting up regularly, there should be no excuses to prevent the meeting from occurring....well...it really takes 2 hands to clap...
Especially in university life, everyone seems to be getting attached and you are not so close to your friends as you used to be. Its a moment of truth: everyone seems to be drifting apart, they are more into their other half than they think. Back in secondary school, friends would declare that they will not 'zhong4 se4 qing1 you3' no matter what, but reality is not as simple....it is more pronounced to those are still not attached yet.....since they are the ones looking to friends for company...
Hmm....at this point in time, my life seems like a void....
My supervisor once asked me, ' What do you want in life?'
At that time, i replied, 'Money & status'
He said, ' Is that what you really want?'
Thinking back, i guess it kind of relates to content theories of motivation i learnt in mpw...At this point in time, this may be what is important to me, but once this need is fulfilled, my wants will change to something else.....Ultimately, it will be something that money n statue can't buy...say having your passion as your job or sth.....
As such, I seem to have most of what i want, but in actual fact i don't have anything at all....Material and extrinsic needs aside, what i really need most is the intrinsic satisfaction that is not easily attain merely by money....that is lacking in my life now.....really craving for some excitement and spice...I guess it is not just as simple as money & status, there's more to it than the oomph factors....
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11:09 PM
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